Well, that’s it. It’s over. Finally, after two years of waiting, hoping and riding an emotional roller coaster, were done. I mean it this time. He pushed me to my limit and I’m sick and tired of it.
The end of May was the last time we talked. After he canceled on me twice in two days and decided I wasn’t important, that’s when I decided enough was enough. We didn’t talk for a month. I left for vacation at the end of June to get my mind off of things and take a break from work to have some fun.
During the trip, I received messages from him. I ignored them. The next morning, I was angry and sad. I kept receiving messages from him and I continued to ignore them. I couldn’t deal with him anymore.
When I got home, I received more messages every so often asking me if I wanted to come over. The messages lasted a couple weeks before he finally gave up. I wasn’t giving in this time. I told him he had one last chance and he blew it. Why should I give him another chance when he’s just going to blow that one too?
One day I went to a pirate game with my friend. I got a snapchat from him, but only it wasn’t him, it was a girl. I knew her too, that’s the worse part. As soon as I saw that snapchat, a million things ran through my mind. Why does she have his phone? Why are they hanging out and Where are they? Is it just the two of them?
Yes, I was jealous and I was so mad. I hated myself for being so mad at her, but she has what I will never have. He will hang out with other friends, but when it come to me, I’m nothing.
I stopped going to basketball for a couple weeks because it was too hard for me to see him and not get upset. One day, I decided since its playoffs that I’d watch the rest of the games. I also wanted to see him.
Everything would have been fine if one thing wouldn’t have happened. I walked down to the gym to take my seat for the game when all of sudden, she came down. I tried to pretend I didn’t see her, but that didn’t work. She started talking to me and then she sat down. I got confused and felt awkward.
The guy sitting beside me asked her why she was here and she said that he invited her. At that point, my head exploded. She kept talking about how she was texting him and blah blah blah. Meanwhile, I’m sitting there trying to pretend that I’m okay. I couldn’t take it anymore and decided to leave the room. Eventually, I just left. He hurt me so much that I just couldn’t handle it anymore. I got in my car and left sobbing and punching the hood of my car.
I was a wreck. The next day at work was tough for me and I almost cried. That day I deleted him from my life. I want nothing to do with him.
The last day of work rolled around and I was praying that I wouldn’t see him. Of course, he shows up and we pass each other. I walked in the kitchen because I was so upset that I was crying. After I left work, I was a complete mess. I knew that I would never see him again, since I got a new job. I can’t tell you how happy I am to start a new chapter and get away from the place that holds so many bad memories that I wish could fade away.
I just don’t get it. He’s always there for his friends (girls) and one of my co-workers who left. He came to say goodbye to her, but won’t come visit me. Whatever, I’m done and moving on. It will take some time, but I’ll get there. I just hope I don’t hear from him.