Dear Diary #5

I did a bad thing last weekend. Sunday night, my brother brought his new girlfriend over, which was a surprise. I wasn’t happy about it because she wasn’t his recent ex-girlfriend who I adored. I didn’t mean to ignore her or be rude, but I was mad at my brother. And when that happens, I automatically get quiet and ignore people. It’s a habit and I know I need to work on it.

Anyway, my family and my brother’s girlfriend were sitting down for dinner and I refused to come in because she was there. I don’t like the fact that he has a new girlfriend. The only one I’ve liked is his recent ex-girlfriend. I feel like we connected well. She is such an amazing person and I feel like we became friends. We went to breakfast and lunch together. I also visited her up at college and spent the night to hang out. We also talked to each other a lot and about what was going on in our lives. At that time, she was the one I’d talk to because I think I felt that connection.

When I heard that my brother ended it. Not only was it difficult for…let’s call her Ally, it was difficult for me as well. I don’t know why, but I was torn apart and upset when she told me that they broke up. I still am. I think they are good together and hope someday that they find their way back to each other.

She was supposed to go on a nice vacation with us this upcoming May, but she won’t obviously, which is a shame because I hoped that she would. And I also told her when she turned 21 that I’d take her out to have a couple drinks, but I couldn’t do that either because they broke up. My brother wouldn’t agree to that, especially because they go to the same college. So I haven’t seen her in awhile and It’s kinda weird. I do miss talking to her.

On that note, that was just something I wanted to share with you guys because I think I needed to get out how I was feeling. So thank you! P.S. I eventually apologized to my brother and his new girlfriend.

(The name above has been changed to keep her identity a secret).


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