Update/Feelings

Where would I be today if I chose not to go through the surgery I had in February?

Definitely not where I am right now. I’m grateful, I am, but I’m also angry. Some days I’m strong and other days, I’m not. And sometimes little things trigger that memory I want forgotten, but it can’t just disappear. That’s the hard part.

I wish I could let go of the past, but I know something as big as my car accident and surgery isn’t something I can let go. But I hope someday I will. When you struggle with a trauma for two years, it can be hard to let go, especially if you are never a 100% fixed.

Sometimes I have those days where I’m sore or get that little bit of pain and it feels like the end of the world. And some days I just wanna cry. But then I have days that are good and don’t think about the car accident and about what I lost.

On a side note, I hope everyone is having a good week! 🙂

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2 Comments

  1. I think it is important to realise that having these feelings is normal and totally acceptable. There is no shame in feeling a little anger or frustration! Even my therapist told me that letting anger out is a good thing.
    I hope you’re having a good day too 🙂

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