The Mirror Part 4

Anna stares into the mirror, sadly. She thought that all her questions would be answered, but she was wrong. This is going to be a lot harder than she imagined.

As hours pass by, Anna remains awake, unable to fall asleep. She thinks about what the reflection in the mirror said. “In time, Anna.” keeps repeating in Anna’s head. “In time?” What does that even mean and how long would Anna have to wait? And how bad could it really be?

It seems like the mirror doesn’t want to tell Anna everything right away. Maybe she’s trying to protect Anna, but why would her own reflection do that.

Anna gazes over at the big glass window. She looks out and admires large clouds forming in the sky. Anna smiles quickly before dropping her eyes from the window. She glances into the mirror in sorrow. Anna lays her head down, waiting for the sun to come up.

A couple hours later, Anna is asleep, and the sun is shining. Suddenly she hears a noise that wakes her up. “Hello?” Anna calls out loudly, hoping, this time, someone would answer her. “Hello?” Anna calls out again. No one answers. Anna sighs.

“I know someone is up there. Why won’t they answer me?” Anna asks annoyed.

Anna wishes that someone would finally answer her, instead of avoiding her. She hates being lonely and talking to a mirror, isn’t exactly good company.

“They’re waiting for the right time.” The voice replies.

The right time? The right time for what? Anna thinks in her head. Anna squints, trying to figure out what the voice in the mirror is talking about.

“The right time?” When is the right time?” Anna asks.

“I see we’re playing twenty questions again.” The voice answers avoiding the issue. This ignoring the question thing is beginning to annoy Anna intensely.

“I’m just trying to get my memory back. I can’t do that if you don’t answer my questions.” Anna responds upset.

“That’s somewhat true.” The voice says.

“What do you mean somewhat true?” Anna asks, hoping to get a straight answer. Anna wishes the mirror would stop playing games and get to the point.

“There are other ways Anna,” The voice suggests.

“Like what?” Anna asks.

“Have you tried closing your eyes and focusing? It may help.” The voice implies.

“Yeah. I’ve tried. It doesn’t work. (Pauses). I’m beginning to think you don’t want to tell me.” Anna says rudely, staring into the mirror. Anna may be right. It still seems as if the mirror is hiding something.

“I’m not hiding anything Anna. I just want you to realize what you’re getting yourself into.” The voice replies.

“I know what I’m getting into.” Anna answers.

Anna knows what she wants and what she’s prepared for, so she thinks. All she wants to know is what’s going on inside the castle and how she can escape out of this dark basement. It won’t be easy, but trying is better than doing nothing.

“That’s just it. You have no idea.” The voice says.

“You’re trying to save me?” Anna stares into the mirror curiously.

Why would the mirror be trying to save Anna? What could the mirror possibly have to gain? It seems like more secrets keep popping up that may go deeper than Anna thought.

“I’m in between Anna.” The voice replies back.

In between? How can you be in between saving someone and not saving someone? Everything is so much more complicated.

“Tell me. When will be the right time?” Anna asks.

“When you’re ready.” The voice explains.

“How do I know when I’m ready?” Anna asks.

“You’ll know.” The voice replies.

“I am ready now!” Anna shouts. She becomes angry.

What does the mirror keep hiding from Anna? And why isn’t she giving her straight answers? These are all questions that remain with Anna. Hopefully, she will find out the truth soon and be able to escape.


The Mirror Part 3


“Who am I?” Anna asks excitedly. Anna thinks that this is all a dream, but maybe she’s wrong. What if this is the beginning of a great journey about finding out who she really is.

“Your name is Anna, and you’re an angel or used to be. That’s why the angel wings keep appearing, even though they’re not there.” The voice in the mirror explains.

Angel. How is that possible? There’s no way Anna can be an angel. And how can a mirror possibly know that? Anna stares into the mirror at her reflection speechless, thinking about how all of this could be true.

“You expect me to believe I’m an angel,” Anna answers. The reflection in the mirror becomes annoyed.

“It’s the truth whether you like it or not.” The voice replies back.

“Fine. So I’m an angel. Where am I?” Anna asks. She swallows, realizing what she’s about to find out. Anna thinks that maybe somewhere out there is a family that’s looking for her. Anna always wanted a sister to share thoughts with and someone to count on.

“Not sure. This place doesn’t ring a bell, but, I can tell you that you’re trapped in this castle from someone who knows about angels or who is one,” The reflection in the mirror explains.

Anna’s head almost explodes as she hears the word trapped. And the fact that this castle could be crawling around with angels freaks Anna out a bit, mainly since they could be evil angels. She never enjoyed the thought of being shut out from the world and being in a strange place surrounded by creatures that aren’t from the normal world.

“I’m surrounded by angels? Good or bad?” Anna asks not entirely happy.
Anna would rather be in a place that’s warmer, far away from this castle. Where she can lay out and close her eyes, forgetting about reality.

“Not quite sure.” The voice replies.

“Do you know anything?” Anna asks annoyed. Anna hugs her knees and gazes at the window for a moment.

“Look, whatever we did, were paying for. Just relax Anna and enjoy the ride.” The voice says before disappearing. Anna quickly turns her head facing the mirror.

“What we did?” She asks in disgust. “I’m talking to a mirror. Unbelievable.”
Anna can’t believe she’s talking to a mirror, let alone obtain information from it. How does she know that everything the reflection in the mirror is saying is true?

I guess for Anna, she has to learn who to trust and right now, the only one she can believe, is the mirror.

“I’m not just a reflection in the mirror Anna. I’m you. The reflection you see is what you want to see.” The voice explains reappearing.

“What I want to see? You mean I want to be an angel?” Anna asks her reflection.

Anna can’t seem to think why anyone would want to be an angel. Someone would have to be crazy to want to be an angel. They might be one of the most beautiful creatures, but it doesn’t seem like anything anyone would choose to do.
“I don’t know what you want. Maybe it’s your way of bringing back the memories you lost. I’m not a crystal ball you know.” The voice answers back rudely.

“Gee, you’re a little sassy, don’t you think?” Anna asks, fed up with the whole angel thing. All Anna wants is a straight answer, but the mirror won’t give her an answer.

“You forget I’m you.” The voice says.

Anna doesn’t know what to believe. She wants to think that once, someone told her she could only believe and trust herself. Anna wishes she knew what her family was like or if she had one. If only Anna’s memories would come back.

“You’re a hallucination,” Anna replies. The voice becomes upset and angry.
“If that’s what you want to think. You think you have everything figured out Anna.” The voice answers back.

Anna feels sorry for what she said to the mirror, even if it is her own reflection. She wants to know more about what’s going on, especially if she’s missing pieces. The most curious part that Anna questions, is her wings and how she became an Angel, but it won’t be that easy.

“What am I missing? What happened to my wings?” Anna asks notably.

“In time, Anna. For now, be careful. Once you figure it out, you’re going to wish you hadn’t.” The voice suggests. “Now, get some sleep, you look tired. And, I could use a nap as well.” The voice says in a creepy tone. The voice disappears along with the wings. Anna takes a glance around the room as it darkens, and is once again, alone.


Bump In The Road….Again

I want to stop caring, but I don’t know how to do that. Right now, I feel lost, and I don’t know what to do. My knee pain is coming back again, and sometimes all I wanna do is cry, but I can’t most of those times.

There are some days where I wanna say what the hell, but, if I do, the pain will come back. Two weeks ago, a kid asked me to run with her. I said you start, but I never went with her. My body wanted to say yes, but my brain said no. I shouldn’t have to think about it. I never had to think about it two and half years ago.

I just feel like working this many hours and doing this job makes my knee act up again. I want to start over and adjust, but I don’t know how. My boss doesn’t know about the car accident or my injuries that happened two and half years ago. I was afraid that if I told my workplace again that I wouldn’t be hired. I just feel like I have to change professions to stop the knee pain. I hit my breaking point a long time ago, mainly because I thought the surgery was supposed to fix everything, but apparently not. I mean, I know the doctor said it may or may not work. I know I’m not 100 percent, but I thought I’d be able to do my job without pain.

I honestly have no idea what to do anymore. I’m going back to the doctor, but there isn’t much he can do. I am beyond frustrated at this point.

On a side note, I hope everyone is having a good weekend.

The Mirror Part 2

Anna realizes that in fact, all of this is real. She lays her head down on the floor and takes a nap. Anna shivers as she tries to get some sleep, but has trouble. She opens her eyes and looks out the glass window at the sky. For a minute, Anna forgets where she is. She gazes back into the mirror at herself and wishes she could be somewhere else.

Forthwith, Anna hears a voice, almost as if it is near. Anna takes a peek in the mirror and realizes the angel wings appearing on her back. She stares closely at the wings. She quickly turns her head to see if the angel wings are there but are not. Anna turns back around to face the mirror. The angel wings are still there. Anna, with confusion on her face, places her hands on the mirror. “What’s going on? Where am I?” Anna asks herself. “Please. Someone tell me what’s going on. I have no memory.” Anna tilts her head to the floor, sad and disappointed.

“Like you don’t know.” A voice loudly says. Anna quickly looks up, and glances around the room frightened. “In the mirror.” The voice declares. Anna stares into the mirror at her reflection as the angel wings appear. “It’s all in my head. The voice isn’t real.” Anna tells herself, trying to calm down. She takes a deep breath and closes her eyes, dreaming of palm trees and the sound of waves hitting the sand. Anna opens her eyes feeling relieved. “You’re not going to get rid of me that easily.” The voice adds.

Anna gapes into the mirror, frozen, unable to look away. “Who are you?” Anna asks curiously, keeping her eyes focused on the mirror.

“I’m you.” The voice in the mirror replies. Anna gazes into the mirror, deciding whether she should be scared or feel at ease.

“I don’t understand,” Anna responds afraid.
“You really don’t know?” The voice asks. Anna shakes her head no. She wishes she knew what the voice was talking about, but unfortunately, her memories are still gone.

“I lost my memories,” Anna answers sadly. The voice in the mirror is hesitant before responding.

“That’s a shame. (Pauses) I can help you recover them if you’d like.” The voice suggests.

“You can?” Anna asks with a smile on her face.

“Of course. You wanna find out who you are, right?” The voice asks. Anna shakes her head yes. “Let’s begin.” The voice happily says.


The Mirror Part 1

“Help! Please! Can anyone hear me?” A beautiful girl named Anna shouts. She frantically gazes around the dark room that surrounds her. Anna glances around and realizes the place doesn’t look familiar.

She notices the floor beneath her, is cold and musty. The room is castle-like with cobwebs. Anna also notices that her memory is gone, completely wiped out. She has no idea who she is and what happened to her.

Anna has long, dark brown hair and brown eyes. She is tall and pale. Anna is seventeen years old. She flashes her eyes down at her feet and recognizes that she is barefoot. Anna acts confused as she wonders where her shoes went

Anna picks her head up and stares at the large mirror in front of her. She smiles brightly as she admires herself and the beautiful white dress she has on. If only Anna could remember where she bought it or if someone gave it to her. Anna sighs as she looks into the mirror with exquisite designs all around the glass. She wonders where the sizeable brown mirror came from and why it is in the basement of the castle-like building.

Anna closes her eyes as she focuses on bringing her memories back, but no such luck. She opens her eyes, frustrated and tries again. Anna tries for the third time, but comes up empty and gives up.

All of a sudden, Anna hears a voice. She uncontrollably looks around the room scared. Anna brushes it off and assumes it’s nothing. Suddenly, the sound becomes louder, and Anna panics. “Hello? Is anyone there?” Anna asks frightened. No answer.

Anna begins to worry. She has no idea where she is and how she got here, wherever here is. Anna glances around the room and notices a stairway, leading to a door. She slowly stands on her bare feet and walks up the stairs. She rests her head against the door to see if she can hear voices. The room on the other side of the door is silent. The voices must have been in Anna’s head.

Abruptly, Anna hears a voice again. She shuts her eyes quickly and figures it is all in her head. She opens her eyes, and the voice is gone. “I’m going crazy,” Anna tells herself, marching down the stairs. Anna sits in front of the mirror and takes a deep breath.

Anna stares into the mirror and notices something strange. She concentrates intensely on the mirror as she starts to see angel wings appear on her back. She marvels at the giant angel wings that appear in the mirror. Anna glances at her back to see the angel wings for herself but are not there. Anna acts confused but calm. She slowly turns back around and notices that the wings disappeared. Anna thinks nothing of it and shakes her head, hoping that this is all a dream.

PS. Another short story I wrote.


Feb. 2018 Update

Hey Everyone! I know it has been awhile. I’ve been crazy busy with a new full-time job and some other things. It seems like there are not enough hours in a day anymore. But I’ll give you guys an update on what’s been going lately.

First, I was supposed to be the maid of honor for my friend’s wedding, but our friendship has parted ways recently, so that’s new. I’m not stressed about the wedding considering I am no longer apart of it, which is a shame, but I felt like I didn’t have a choice.

Second, about two weeks ago I went to Kalahari with my cousin’s and a friend that came along. We had a blast! Kalahari is a lot of fun! I honestly did not want to come back to reality yet. If you haven’t been there yet, you definitely have to go. It is an incredible place.

Hope you guys have a great week! 🙂


Where would I be today if I chose not to go through the surgery I had in February?

Definitely not where I am right now. I’m grateful, I am, but I’m also angry. Some days I’m strong and other days, I’m not. And sometimes little things trigger that memory I want forgotten, but it can’t just disappear. That’s the hard part.

I wish I could let go of the past, but I know something as big as my car accident and surgery isn’t something I can let go. But I hope someday I will. When you struggle with a trauma for two years, it can be hard to let go, especially if you are never a 100% fixed.

Sometimes I have those days where I’m sore or get that little bit of pain and it feels like the end of the world. And some days I just wanna cry. But then I have days that are good and don’t think about the car accident and about what I lost.

On a side note, I hope everyone is having a good week! 🙂